Wednesday, July 27, 2005

One hand in my pocket...

And the other one turning up the radio...

On July 11th, Jenny emailed me a quiz that I had to fill out and post. In it , I had to list 5 people that I would like to meet. Well, I can officially cross one more name off that list as I had the unbelievable fortune of meeting the one and only Alanis Morissette yesterday.

I am trying to get a clip of the radio broadcast (I asked her a question) and as soon as I do, I will post it. She was radiant and everything I wanted her to be.

It is fun to still feel like a fan from time to time...

Monday, July 18, 2005

Just grin and BEAR it...


Love Handles number 14 is up and available. Join me as I stick my first toe into the bear world... won't you?

http://66.161.86.126/detail.asp?id=12887

(c)planetbaub 2005

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Modern Day Marriage


This is me with my wife Ashley. We are part of a three way marriage with Pete. Any day now we are going to choose one state to live in (most likely California since they are more open-minded to such forward thinking, instead of Idaho). In the meantime, I just have these photos to keep them in my heart until we are able to be together again soon...

This is our husband, Pete. Aren't we lucky?
(c)planetbaub 2005

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Precious Illusions... more on this later...

You’ll rescue me right? in the exact same way they never did..
I’ll be happy right? when your healing powers kick in

You’ll complete me right? then my life can finally begin
I’ll be worthy right? only when you realize the gem I am?

But this won’t work now the way it once did
And I won’t keep it up even though I would love to
Once I know who I’m not then I’ll know who I am
But I know I won’t keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defenseless
And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends

This ring will me yet as will you knight in shining armor
This pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water

But this won’t work as well as the way it once did
Cuz I want to decide between survival and bliss
And though I know who I’m not I still don’t know who I am
But I know I won’t keep on playing the victim

These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid
And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend

I’ve spent so long firmly looking outside me
I’ve spent so much time living in survival mode

Monday, July 11, 2005

Being a good sport...

I got tagged with this lifetime meme:

10 years ago: I was 21. It was the year I really came into my skin and began to own who I was. I was surrounded by amazing friends and had my first real job (Navigation Technologies). I was living with Lisa Starkie in San Jose. I miss her. I wish she would find me. 10 years ago was also the year I got Sophie.

5 years ago: The world was a different place. Pre-9/11, pop music made an extraoridnary comeback and I not only got to enjoy it, got to be a part of it. I was off at a No Strings Attached show somewhere around this time. I was working on Movies with Tom Hanks and Jodie Foster. I was living in West Hollywood. I was looking at pursuing a career as a journalist and giving up film production.

1 year ago: I was at the beginning of what became a very destructive slide into depression post 30th birthday. I was emotionally and physically exhausted and completely checked out.

Yesterday: I was tired yesterday as well. But in a completely different space. I got to hang out with my cat in my new home and just do chores and relax. So close to my home being completed, it makes me happy to just sit in it. I also had lunch with my sister and her new boyfriend. All I can say is hot and I will leave it up to you if I am referring to him or my lack of air conditioning in new home.

Today: Still tired. It is a boring theme in my life. At work. Trying to muster the strength to catch up on filing.

Tomorrow: Having dinner with a manager that wants to represent me. Biting nails nervously.

5 snacks I enjoy: Wheat Thins and Cream Cheese; Asiago and Wheat Thins with Red Wine; Fresh Fruit; Anything I can dip in Ranch Dressing; Nachos

5 bands/singers that I know the lyrics of MOST of their songs: Debbie Gibson, Madonna, Belinda Carlisle, Bon Jovi, Chris Isaak

5 things I would do with $100,000,000: Travel, own a a nice home, own a vacation home, pursue my writing career, liposuction

5 locations I’d like to run away to: Tuscany, London, Santa Fe, Santa Barbara, Australia

5 bad habits I have: I get bored easily which kills my motivation and I ultimately end up lazy and wasting time being unproductive; digging at my cuticles; eating poorly; beating myself up; forgetting

5 things I like doing: dancing, laughing with friends, reading a book with my cat in my lap and wine by my side, eating, cooking for friends

5 things I would never wear: a prince albert, I think that everything else is possible knowing my love of a good costume :-)

5 TV shows I like: One Tree Hill, The OC, Reba, Entourage, Six Feet Under

5 movies I like: About a Boy, Grease, Outrageous Fortune, Sordid Lives, Steel Magnolias

5 famous people I’d like to meet: Armistead Maupin, Dolly Parton, Alanis Morissette, Ed Robertson (BNL), Natalie Maines

5 biggest joys at the moment: my new home, my friendships, my music, my shrinking waist line, my column

5 favorite toys: my mp3 player, my cell phone, men, Rubikscube and my etch-a-sketch

5 people to tag: Paula, Erica, Apul, Clara, Adam

Monday, July 04, 2005

A Racy Roman Holiday...


I know, I know... I am still trying to get the pics up from my Italian adventure... but in the meantime, my new Love Handles is up and it exposes my one gay adventure in Roma! It's just a little something to wet the appetite... http://66.161.86.126/detail.asp?id=12477
(c)planetbaub 2005